Old Grumpy Scrooge

I really need to be working!  I'm trying to get all means of procrastination out of my system so I can get all my files and paper work in order for my first review tomorrow.  You'd think I'd be nervous of such a big thing but I think that bigger and harder part was having my first formal observation.  The first lesson I taught whilst observed by my tutor went amazingly well and he could hardly think of any bad points and was full of praise really made my day.  Now I know I can teach and I have spoken to a few people about theirs and I seem to have done extremely well compared to most so yay me!  I am a good teacher and I really cant wait to get rid of all this pointlessness and get on with just teaching :)

Anyway onto something a little more interesting :)  I think by now we are all well aware that christmas is approaching.   I for one was already sick of christmas songs before it was even december!  One draw back of living so centrally.  My christmas shopping, well lets think I wrote my list over the weekend, I purchased my secret santa gifts (which was incredibly hard since buying presents for someone I know is hard enough I think I just over think it) and the rest is just a list.  

My main dilemma at this time of year is who do I spend christmas with?  Do I go and see my dad and his new family have a wonderful time surrounded by countryside, animals, log burning fires, see my grandparents and be spoilt and see all of that side of the family.  Or do I go to my aunts and see my cousins, see my mother, be spoilt in a different way, have a good laugh and be treated more of an adult and most importantly see my brother.  I just dont know how I make this decision each year it's so hard!  Either way I let someone down, either way I will feel like I've missed out!  Bah I dont know when the time comes I will make the decision I need to make.  It is weather dependant, dependant on where everyone else is going and dependant on whether I can actually afford to travel!

To be honest I've been thinking about just spending christmas alone.  I know that sounds so sad and scrooge like but it's such a hassle going round everyone!  I have four houses to visit in the space of a week and they dont live close to each other.  In total getting there and back I will probably spend about 12hours travelling so a day either side!  It's just craziness!  Something I just cant be bothered with!

No I dont get just one week of holiday I do have two weeks off but I like to spend time to myself.  Especially after such a long term of hard work I just need a few days to sit and not do much of anything and then I need that again after travelling since it's none stop with the family.  

I feel so old!  Moaning about all of this :(  I remember when I was excited it was christmas I got to open presents and see everyone and generally have a merry time.  I shall see past the blah to the fun excitedness I should feel at this time of year and no matter who I end up seeing I will make it an amazing time!  I think my grumpy self isn't helped by not getting to play in any snow :(

Ah self realisation such a wonderful thing :)  I now have the motivation to get on with this work too!  

Have a wonderful week :)