I just want to feel sexy again!

Firstly happy first of November everyone, cant believe time is going by so fast!

This is a post on that age old issue of shape and size.  Now I know I'm not either super fat or super skinny and that I am thankful for, but there is the fact that I used to be a lot slimmer than I am now and I miss it.  I miss feeling good no matter what I wore, I miss the extra looks I got for my lovely figure, I miss being a size 8, I miss my perfectly flat stomach, I miss my skinny thighs and the list goes on and on and on........

It is my lack of discipline and the fact that I've been a lazy student bum for the past four years that I have become the shape that I am now.  Being a lazy student bum is definitely part of the student life and something that I dont regret, I had fun and enjoyed myself what more could I ask for?  It has now occurred to me though that although technically I am still a student (yay discount) but really I'm more of a grown up.  I really dont like to describe myself with those words as I really dont feel like a grown up!  But I have to face the reality that I am no longer a carefree teen just rambling through life.  I am now a trainee teacher which entails a lot of responsibility and a lot of hard work and discipline.

Now thanks to the media (I could rant all day about the media but I wont bore you with that or at least I'll save it for another post) I cant think of anything over than south park when I say lack of discipline which always makes me laugh a little inside.  But it's definitely the thing that I lack.  I never stop myself from eating that extra biscuit or putting those extra few chips in the oven.  It's not just the food that I lack discipline with, though it's also foods fault for being so tasty!  I am so bad when it comes to exercise.  Now logically I know that if I dont exercise I wont ever get the figure I had back, it's just not plausible, but I am so lazy!  

I have no clue how to get rid of my laziness!  Any hints?  I think once again it comes down to discipline, if I can find a way to get myself to do that little bit more exercise every week and I eat that little bit less then I should find that my old figure will come back naturally.  It's easy to say this but it's so much harder to do and it's even harder when you eat out of boredom and that's a cycle I have to break.  I need to recognise that I am bored not hungry and find something more entertaining to do.

Shibby's plan to become less lazy and have more discipline :)  Hopefully as the weeks pass and I do this more and more I shall feel so much more confident in myself and being to post pics on my blog, this is such a good incentive!  I have set myself a challenge lets hope I can carry it through all the way to feeling as sexy as I used to =)

Sorry for the excessive text post!