Friendship

(Just a note: I wrote this at about 5am after my party on saturday in a not so sober state)

Ok so only two people turned up to my house party!  That's right a whole two!  I feel fantastic right now!  I mean I do feel bad that no one else bothered to turn up, but to be quite honest I wouldn't have had it any other way!  It would have been awesome to have lots of people here and amazing rush of different personalities all interacting at once, all providing some kind of stimulus, all having an amazing time.  But instead I got two people that I only met a few months ago that I feel closer to than any other friend I have ever made :)  A few of my friends were ill or they couldn't get babysitters and one of them dropped their fish bowl and cut himseelf quite bad!  The only thing I'm bothered about is all my baking has gone to waste but I'm sure I'll find something to do with it, people generally dont turn away tasty food =) 

I could not think of a better thing to represent friendship than Winnie the Pooh =)

I dont know whether it's me or just the luck of the draw of the people I've met either way I couldn't care because they are amazing!  I have never really got on with girls so well that I can spend 6-7 hours with them without realising, just chatting away about life and ramdomness and things that occur when a little alcohol is involved :)

I have had a very bad week.  My ex is messing with my head and I really dont want to get into that on here, but all I will say is that it is getting me down, I just feel like I'm stuck in limbo.  The night before my party I lost all my music and I was meant to go out.  My friend who I was meant to be going out with never contacted me and when I tried her her phone was off!  I sorted the music situation and then my laptop got a virus! Awesome!  But I am very good with computers and after about 4hours of playing around and deleting things the problem had gone away enough for me not to worry until after my party :)  And then only two of the twenty people turned up, this usually would send me into a very depressed state but I have had an amazing evening, an amazing house warming party and I start of new beginnings and moving forwards in my life =)

I have just never felt friendship like this before, never know two people so well and trusted them so much and even though they're so different from me that's what makes them so much more interesting =)  I had this huge feeling inside that it was just going to be us tonight and though that may have been sad I think it's what I needed and I think that because of it we have bonded amazingly and I am so greatful for that!

I am just so happy that I can finally live my life for me, be happy for me and enjoy the joys and surprises life throws my way!  I hope you have this in your life =)