One of those days

Life gave me a kick today and instead of learning it's lesson I kicked back and it smacked me in the face!!!  Ok so it wasn't that bad but I still went with my 'teenage angst' ways and it went the way I could have predicted!  I really dont get why I do it I mean an hour later I sit and think what the hell went through my head to make me be so angry?  The most infuriating thing about it was that it was an argument with a guy and becuase I was being angry the first thing he said was 'are you on'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I'm sure that's what set me off, I think I was at least keeping my head until that line came.  Dont know what I'm going to do :(  I get that I should have stayed more calm than I did, but I cant change the past and it's making my future much more of a pain :(

I hate thinking like this but I cant help feeling that I've had an awesome two weeks and I'm due something to get me down!!  This really sounds terrible though and I dont want to feel like I cant just go on enjoying life there's always going to be something that trips me up.  I guess I should see this as something to give me perspective so that the things I enjoy I enjoy more.  I dont know I'm just a big cloud of dunno ha! :)  I am still going to enjoy life and go with the flow I just wish that this trip up hadn't come when it did, I am very stressed and at the time I hadn't eaten all day and didn't eat till about 4pm!

Anyway sorry for the downer of a post but everyone does have off days so I guess yesterday was my off day.  Today is going to be one extremely long day full of lots of kids asking lots of questions, it's so demanding and then round for tea at a friends since monday night was switched to tonight.  It seems that when I write down what the plans are it never seems to go as planned, well not never but a lot of the time.  Due to this I tend not to write much down and keep most things in my head and then once it's occured it goes in the diary :)

Happy wednesday half way to the weekend oh how I cant wait to have a lazy day in bed =)