Blah

I have been feeling very blah recently :( I just dont really know what to do with myself any more.  I'm used to the routine of school and then univeristy, but now that's all gone I'm just a big cloud of dunno all the time :( I really want to find my passion in life, but I have no idea where to start.  

Joining the library definately is a step in the right direction, I have access to millions of books that should inspire me to go in a direction. BUT I dont know where to start reading!!!!! Bah I'm just rubbish at taking controll of my life as I've never had to before and making decisions on my own are very very daunting.  I think that next time I'm there I'll go through a few sections, not think too much about it and just take books that have titles that interest me, maybe I'll read the back, but I can always take them back if they become uninteresting and then I can find something different :)

The fact that I spend all my time either looking for a job or doing general boring house work doesn't really help my blah state.  At least if I had a job I'd have something to put my passion into and it'd be something to take up my time, and I'd actually have money :) but I still have no job and there's nothing and the things I do apply for I dont get replies for so meh

This was a rather ranty post I appologise and next time I will post about happy things.

Try to see the silver lining, it always exists :)